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It’s 10:26 at night and Christi is in bed with Bella, while I am sitting on the couch writing on the blog waiting for Jordan to return from his friend’s Raul’s house where he had Mexican food and went to see the movie Ghost Writer.
The house is practically empty and most definitly quiet. It seems quieter that in the morning when I sit at the table waiting for the rest of the family to wake up. -Strange- I seem to be the last one to bed and the frst one up. (I wonder why.)
In any case, I feel completely at ease. I feel at peace with God and with my life. To be perfectly candid I must admit that I am actually excited about the prospects and activity that is surrounding me. This is a little odd since there is a lot of things going on right now, and if I were to be watching my life as it is right now on the silver screen I would be nervous for the protagonist. But I would also be excited for him because I would know that all these things generating a whirlwind around him only means a great and more rich story from which the protagonist will emerge a greater hero.
This unexplained peace and calm became more clear this evening as I went to the Kitchen to make some popcorn for my daughter as she watched the movie “Guardians of Ga’Hoole” on blu ray in the den. A thought tried to settle inside my heart. It sprouted when I looked at the cupboard and I saw how stocked we were and how full our refrigerator was and a question rose up from somewhere and asked me. “Aren’t you going to the States in a week?” for a brief instant the thought of not being prepared or not knowing where I will be in the next few weeks or months seemed to rush at me and at the same time I could “see” how I was well ensconced in my Faith with God that there wasn’t anything that was going to shake it. I knew without a doubt that God had us right where He wanted us and was in the process of taking Good care of us. And the thought dissipated like a wave on the sand, drawing back and sinking beneath the surface leaving only a faint hint of its existence, a faint memory.
These thoughts have attempted to land some sort of beachfront in my heart or in my mind and I am happy to say that none have been able to. I have kept my mind, my heart, and my eyes on God. He is the author and the finisher of my faith and it is inHim that I find purpose and have a marvelous future.
These words were once things I would say in church as I waved my bible over my head and repeated after the pastor but lately they have gained new meaning and a stronger foundation. They seem 3-dimentional in a way. More real. Not that they weren’t real when I said them before but lately they have more meaning.
Perhaps it is only now, that I have really stopped and listened to what I was confessing or maybe it is because in the face of uncertainty the only thing that is certain is the WORD. The Word of God.
I must say t is the later. It is that Word of God that is never changing. And in this situation in which no one outside of God knows “for sure” what will be happening, I have a confidence that is undeniable and in the eyes of those around me strange and perhaps a bit looney too.
Thank God for it.
I would encourage all those who read this and are being battered by the waves of life and your tomorrow seems unsure and constantly changing to put your eyes on the horizon. When boats cant seem to be still the best remedy for seasickness is to look at the horizon for it is still and unmoving. It gives you a bearing. As we walk through life we can get all caught up in ourselves and in our work, or life, or family etc and this will (without a doubt) make you seasick. It will give you ulcers, IBS, diarrhea, headaches, and a ton of other stuff that doesn’t really rear it’s head up right away. But if you will find solid ground and step on it, or simply keep your eyes on it you will get your footing and be able to stand against the storms of life.
The only thing that is stable and based in Love is the Word of God. Seek it out, Find it, put it in your heart and keep it between your eyes.
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